just a little walk..

yesterday I went on a little walk through a part of Vina I had not yet been to

it was beautiful!

there was bright flowers blooming everywhere 

a little garden nook
and children running around playing

at one point during my walk I came upon this view

I stopped for a little while and just sat there on the stone wall

I just took in the beauty of the ocean and cool breeze blowing off it

Its moments like this in my life when I think about God

Its views like this that remind me of Gods perfectness 

like my God created these oceans 

I think I tend to take for granted my relationship with Christ

If I get to busy I push it to the side and pretend like ill get to it later 

but its moments like this that leave me longing 

to know my God on a much deeper leave

it leaves me thinking about what it will be like when I stand before Him

will he be proud of me?

will I hear the word "well done my good and perfect servant"?

It scares me to think that I may not being doing enough for the kingdom

I am constantly thinking about my work for God

and I where  God wants me to be right now?

was it in Gods plan for  me to come to study in Chile? or was it mine?

theses are questions that are always in the front of my mind

I feel like Im meant to be here in Chile 

when I see faces like this little cutie

I know that I am where I need to be

I may not be motivated going and spending time loving on these children every week

I might be tired or just plane lazy

but I know that they need it 

there so desperate for love it kills me  

I want to pack them all up and bring them right on home with me 

but that's just not possible right now

but seriously think about adoption 

its such a beautiful thing 

I know im still really young and niave in saying this

 but spending time at the orphanage here 

has really grabbed at my heart

I know that one day I'll be back, maybe not at this specific place

but I'll be back to take a precious angel out of the orphanage and home with my family

Its exciting and scary knowing that there is a God that loves us

a God that has such a perfect and wonderful plan for our lives

one that we could never even dream of

He knows our every being 

and I love that

I have a father in heaven that loves me 

He longs for my life 

this verse is my everyday reminder of that

"for I know the plans I have you, "declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

Jeremiah 29:11

He promises us this all throughout the bible 

all we have to do is trust Him 

and give our lives to Him